i am so fat i am so fat i am so fat... 122 WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME... ewwwwwww... so i ran a mile today... and then i went swimming... i had sushi for dinner and that's all i ate all day... good stuff. i'm trying to update more and more but my life is going NUTS..

<3ladyjames

GOD i am HORRIBLE at updating... recently since i lost my own computer my updates have been falling so short.

well my calorie intake for the past two days has been pretty good.

under 500 yesterday

under 700 today... thus far.

but i also worked out yesterday and today with the same 750 calorie burning workout! so thats pretty good. anyway.. i hope all you ladies are doin fine!

<3ladyjames

okay so today i've eaten a sandwich and a few bites of potato salad... maybe 600 cals.

i'm having some crap for dinner that i can throw up.

i throw up so much, is that bad?

<3ladyjames

been fasting for 14 hours.... that included 6 hours of sleep, i have a lax game today so i believe i need to eat about 600 cals. what should i eat? maybe a bowl of oatmeal? hmm

<3ladyjames

 i really haven't abandoned ana, my life is so hectic with aps. i've been eating like one solid meal a day... so thats like 900 cals. plus lax... but i'm putting on stress weight, i know it.... i hate it.... i have been throwing up alot too, really nice actually... i kinda like it... who knows maybe being mia isn't so bad... idk i guessi just don't understand it.

<3ladyjames